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110th Entry - 1 January 2018, 5pm

Happy New Year everybody! I hope everybody had a great evening filled with laughter and fun. I definitely did. I danced all night and then jumped in the pool at midnight as per tradition. We had a great party with friends and family and most of my favourite people. I am feeling a little wonky and unsettled. Mentally, I mean. I have emailed Prof and asked if he could phone me so that we could talk. I am feeling a little bit better today maybe because I should be getting my period today. I am excited and scared for the new year. So much could happen but no one knows what will happen yet. Here are a few, let's called them truths, that might help you during the year.

1. Always tell the truth. This is often scary because it seems like people are always expecting things from you. You are not responsible for making everyone else happy. But, telling the truth does not mean that you are cruel. This leads to the second rule.
2. Be kind at every stop in life. You don't know what another person is dealing with so be gentle when walking in the lives of others.
3. Pursue every iota of what makes you happy. Fight for every single thing that makes you happy.
4. Let everyone that you love know what they mean to you. You never know when it might be the last time.
5. Treat every moment like your last. You don't know how much time you have. You never know when you'll have the last kiss or last conversation. With this truth comes the responsibility of not being totally YOLO the whole year. Be cautious in life.

I hope this year is as beautiful as last year. Enjoy.

E.H.

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