Life is weird. People spend all day doing pointless things to supposedly get somewhere in life. Everyone seems so content to just go about life. Am I the only one who questions this? I used to wake up in the morning and smile. This was for so many reasons. I was happy because there was a wonderful person lying on the floor next to me. I was happy because my mind was working well for the first time in so long. I was doing okay at school. Now, my mind isn't working well. And I have no one to wake up to. And that's okay. I'm to messed up to be with anyone now. There are days that go by where I don't think about John and then when I do I send him light and love. No matter how things ended I will only remember the good times. I have no hard feelings. So I'm back at school now. I'm in class with Bella. Which has been very challenging. We are both not adjusting well. I am also swimming. Badly. But I haven't drowned yet. I'm pretty much drowning in my life. I a...